maskofdeception

just a quick howdy-doodle and letting you know i’ve moved to http://scharahap.wordpress.com/

if love is a drug, then I’m a drug addict on rehab.
There are those days where life is good,
and days where you relapse.
today; i’m relapsing.

Let it die and get out of my mind
We don’t see eye to eye
Or hear ear to ear

Don’t you wish that we could forget that kiss
And see this for what it is
That we’re not in love

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn’t the ending so much as the start

It was hard to tell just how I felt
To not recognize myself
I started to fade away

And after all it won’t take long to fall in love
Now I know what I don’t want
I learned that with you

The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn’t the ending so much as the start
The tragedy starts from the very first spark
Losing your mind for the sake of your heart
The saddest part of a broken heart
Isn’t the ending so much as the start

google hates me. I haven’t been able to log into my google accounts (gmail, google groups and blogger) for more than a month now.
i need my google accounts back!

so for now, friendster blog and multiply, you are my substitute for blogger.

i don’t care if anyone reads this, or if no one does at all.
all i know is that when raindrops are falling, they represent my soul.
and however much i try, i cannot get it right.
the simplest goodbye; bleeds through like a knife.

its funny how i can change within 24 hours.
oh, help me.

i need a margarita in one hand, a cig in the other
and Moony - Dove blaring on the speaker.
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Why can’t he give her his love..No more again
Tears on her face, and the dove
She cries, she knows
She won’t be able to fly…Away from him
She’ll look a red rose in the spring
No she won’t be able to sing….Songs of love
I’ll open up my heart
I’ll be loving you forever and ever
I’ll be part of you
In the way I do
Come into my life so I can sing
And if she questions the sun..Why, why me
The sun doesn’t answer
Oh God, can you help me
The answer is easy my love
You’ve built your own jail
You’ve always been part of the sky
So why d’you keep staying by his side
Away from me
I’ll open up my heart
I’ll be loving you forever and ever
I’ll be part of you
In the way I do
Come into my life so I can sing
She’s a white dove…An angel in disguise
She fell in love with the man
But this man won’t give back her love
So this is her cry
This is her cry
This is her cry
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oh yeah. let me shake away my worries…

THE CLIENTELE
the violet hour

    terraces that climb like vines

towards the moon

the five a sides

the evening inter-city lights


I see your face each time I close my eyes

Jude I told you yesterday that I know nothing

all my friends are loaded & they smile

picking up the pieces from a bleary night away

exhaust fumes, magnolias & light

Helen in the art-class light

yes I guess that if I stay, I’ll stay all night


& I know that you’re not afraid

but every time I close my eyes I see your face

walking down to Springfield Park uneasy in the haze

uneasy in the sunlight & the quiet


living life without love in your mother’s waiting room

minute here by minute it’s like dying

terraces that climb like vines

towards a moon that hangs above another night

& streets so filled with echoing


you’re so tired that you believe in everything

so that summer came & went & I became cold

yeah I became cold

yeah I became cold

so that summer came & went & I became cold

yeah I became cold


ah I became cold

together,
we laughed, cried, hung out, drank, smoked, treasured, dance, tumbled, screwed, chatted, smiled, talked, discovered, jumped, worked, kissed, fought, ate, slept, made-up, sneezed, coughed, twirled, caressed, played, watched, sang, listened, sat, galloped, flirted, ran, read, studied, understood, learned, idolized, hugged, fantasized…
and 126,819,003 other verbs,
in the last 1 year (almost) 7 months.

forget it now, yet cherish it forever,
….. reminisce us, together..

now listening: love for granted (phoenix)

i have gotten lost and is now being succumbed to my own desperation. i see life through dark, tinted glasses and it had brought me my depression… true, i had believe that acknowledging and appreciating life’s beauty is made possible once you have encountered its darkness. Yet in mild times, you seem to portray everything in its negative image..

life, what is it that i am seeking from you? rollercoaster emotions, you have become a parasite to my fragile and aching heart. Oh young love, oh dearest love, oh saddening love, oh my heartbreaking love… open your heart and let faith fill in, filling into the deepest depths of your darkened soul.

love, stop intoxicating me with your whole-hearted drama and river of tears. Jerk me away from this wrenching dysphoria, the very same spiral i am tumbling down into. release me into a world of positively joyful laughter and tears… a seemingly distant oasis that i fear will never come.

oh child of the night,
bring forth to me.
oh child of the night,
let me set your ambitions free.

oh princess of the moonlight,
thou shalt wipe those tears.
oh princess of the moonlight,
let me drain your fears.

in the chill of the night. i bring myself to you… dazed, and lost. your sonnet sinks me into my grave. my monologue freezes your soul. together, we danced into the grey wisps of smoke; hand in hand, facing the fluorescent moonlight.